I started running because I desperately needed a way to vent. That simple. There were days when all I wanted to do was scream. Scream out of anger, frustration, lack of control of simple things. Knew I needed a release. The thought of running has been with me for a while before I ventured on the 1st run. It’s been bubbling for a while, growing on me. Left it until late, until such time that I felt the only way to handle it was to start moving or crack (and not in the fun Irish way).
The first run was tough – leg pains, lungs on fire, sweat pouring… Struggling to breathe.
Had my 1st on a small loop, 2.5km close to home. Seemed short and sweet. Been through it so many times. Walk this route every lunch break. Only walking doesn’t equal running
Even though pain and suffering followed, it felt good cause all I thought about was breathing and the next step, and next, and another one. There was nothing else, just me, the immediate surroundings and where to put my feet next. I was here, now, in the moment. Not thinking about work, chores, responsibilities, list of things to do. None of it. It was so simple and purifying.
And after, exhausted made it home with heart pounding and face on fire. Sat on a garden chair and took time to cool down. Realised the sweat and exhaustion served as cleanser. I rid of whatever toxins have accumulated in my body and mind, through sweat. Left it all on the road. On that last climb when I almost stopped, thinking “I can’t do it”.
Got a clear, focused mind in return. One ready to start fresh, focusing the important things in life.
The second run Alan came with and we had a good time chatting along the way. Time was passing faster, hills seemed less steep. And even though I didn’t break any records Knew this is not only what I need but enjoy doing. It’s me, my time to be with myself, and our time to let go.
A friend had asked me about running recently. He’s a runner himself and was curious to learn my reasons especially since I was never very keen on it. The answer is simple – running is my meditation, my no nonsense time. It cleanses, relaxes, resets body and mind. Prepares better for what’s to come.
And most importantly brings happiness.
What is running to you?
By Bozena