Am I happy again?

Back to happy

Drive to Galway… In my head – 4 hours pacer and the big question – can I do it?. The whole 3 hours were like that. Talking to my Wife, listening to music but head was occupied with something else. I was really afraid. Got to Galway late at night, so we only got time for ‘visit’ to local shop to get cash for B&B. Prepared myself for run. Next day I had to be there 8 AM to pick up my number. Very limited free parking spaces. Plenty pay and display ones. Parked there, went to pick up number, collected my balloon. First time in a long time I was in the right place and time for MCI photo. Hectic morning. We weren’t even running yet and I was ‘running’ here and back like headless chicken. Ok… calm down. Get in your running gear and prepare yourself for run. Toilet, balloon, starting line, chat with Gary… ready…
Start… Not very confident about pacing, about running altogether. But I was there and had to do it. Weather wasn’t great. Grey, no sun, breeze from ocean, temperature about 10 – 11 degrees. Nice weather to run, not great for sightseeing (or pacing). Oh, well, 4 hours run in front of me. Nice crowd gathered next to me and Norman. We knew that most of them will eventually drop out but we were counting for brining some of the runners with us to the finish line. First marathon, besides 4:30 in Waterford. With a chance of bringing people with me in 4 hours. Proven wrong again. Me and Norman brought just one runner with us in 4 hours. Some runners were quicker than our pace and finished ahead of us. But from initial group we had none, yet again. Norman had one runner who started stronger but became weaker and weaker with every mile. But he supported him and both finished under 4 hours. For the most of the race I had two, maybe three runners following me. One of them – Marek – was running strong up to 31st km (just little bit more than 2 loops to go). He dropped then and finished in 4:03, PB for him. I have ended up without any groupies but noticed one of early starters – Catherine. First lady home in Connemara 100 this year. She started 30 minutes ahead of us, so her time would be 4:30 if she finished with me. She did great and finished probably around 4:27. Maybe little bit less. I was enjoying that run. No stress, checking my watch constantly for pace and heart rate. Both were in norm. I was feeling comfortable. Weather was getting slightly worse. Little bit colder and breeze picked up as well slightly towards end of the run. Probably I would be feeling even better if I wasn’t talking the whole time. That is something I’m not doing regularly. Usually running alone in silence listening to my steps and breath. 2000 participants on different distances – 10 km, half marathon, full marathon. Big groups of runners running together. Sometimes was hard to overtake people in that crowd. Support was brilliant. You can clearly see that town was prepared to cheer up for runners. Marathon organised well. As usual when Ray is the race director. Must say that head was in the right place when I was running that marathon. Still legs needed to follow but it was good. For the first time in the past 4 – 5 weeks I was actually enjoying race. No DNF ideas. And just before finishing line, when I have already pushed Catherine towards her sub 4:30 I stopped and rooted for rest of finishing runners. Shouting words of encouragement, clapping. Spent there maybe 30 seconds and cruised towards finish line in the ‘plane style’. Again, for the first time in ages.
Some of my Friends asked about the race. If I was enjoying it and how I feeling afterwards. They were concerned about me. But they could see straight away that I was in right place. Joking at the end of the race. That means something. Great race to run. Will be back there next year to enjoy again. What was left to do that day? Hmmm… get into the car and drive to Monaghan for next marathon. But first lunch in Tai restaurant. First b2b in long time. It was just to check how legs will behave running marathons in two consecutive days. Plan for next day was 3:45 – 4 hours. Just to get through hilly woodlands of Monaghan Town.
I think head is ok. Lets wait for legs. See that marathon in pictures… Read more

Am I going left or right? – part 1

Munich food

…and no. Vincent I wasn’t lost again when running. There was little bit confusion when was trying to get to VIP area to pick up my bag and get quiet and hot shower. On the finishing line me and Volker (other pacemaker) went right to queue in the line for medal. Got it and start to ask question where is VIP area. Got couple mixed answers. Some were sending us up the stairs and then down, some saying that we should just go there (pointing in random directions). Eventually, after running stadium steps up and down twice, crossing marathon route we got to our VIP shower. That was nice. Hot shower after cold run. Then little bit snack in VIP lounge… Ok, but start from the beginning. Read more

For love of God – STOP

Tired with medal

I think I have reached the point where I have to say I overdid it. I’m over-trained, my body is shutting down on me… At this stage I’m able to run for about 45 – 50 minutes and not even at my fast pace. But then legs just… they just stop. Fatigue kicks in, cannot lift legs, strides are very short. Maybe the amount of strides is same but… being so short means covering less distance. Same distance but more time needed to finish run…
I think I’m done. Still have maybe 5 runs booked till the end of the year and that will be it. No more until the end of the season. Low, low, low…
Haven’t felt that in ages… honestly. Haven’t felt this way ever. Even at the beginning of the year when I thought that I was in a bad shape I wasn’t. Now I know that. Back then I was miserable or just little bit down. Now I’m really bad. Overtrained, overweight… Can’t run marathon even in 3:30… What the hell happened?
But, as you all know already, when there is marathon I follow. And here I was Saturday morning in Longwood. First time for me there. First time, so couldn’t miss it. Was that wise? Probably, definitely not. Should have given my legs a rest. Should stop running 20 km a day without bigger breakes. But again I have ignored my head and body. Yeeea, what could go wrong? Flat course… relatively. Or at least that’s what I thought. Was proven wrong at the end of the run. Maybe I wouldn’t have seen those humps if my fitness was OK but for now it wasn’t flat for me. Lately I have noticed that I’m starting run at full swing and after 10 – 16 km my fuel is gone and remaining distance is a constant struggle or even fight with tired body. For the last 3-4 marathons (including this one) I had so many thoughts about DNF. Was feeling really bad, that idea of stopping, jumping into car and just driving away was very tempting. Haven’t done that but so many times I was rally close to ‘throwing the towel ‘. This run wasn’t different.
Before the race I was feeling OK (unfortunately usual gut feeling bad race will be good, feeling good race will be bad wasn’t working any more). All thoughts focused on the run to finish in 3:30. Should be easy. Week before in Szczecin got small injury and ended up over 4 hours as a pacer but wasn’t counting that time. Previous runs on hilly courses in Dingle, Tyrone were ones were I was getting around 3:30. So, I couldn’t imagine that on a flatter course I would be struggling. But at the end of the day that was the case. But, lest’s start from the beginning. Sunny day, high number of runners. All because of couple distances you could run that morning. 10 km, half marathon, 20 miles and full marathon. I heard that it was biggest crowd to date recorded on the EOI marathon. After inspiring briefing talk by Rory Mooney and kind of ‘Fergie dryer’ from Ger we gathered at the starting line. Plan? Not really. Wanted to get 3:30. Started in pace 4:35 – 4:45 first 10 km. I know that for most of you that is probably jog but for me, especially now it is ‘light speed’. What happened after? You are guessing correctly. Fuel cut off. Not even fumes left. Run with strong will not legs – literally just moving 2 mm above the ground. No speed in them. Why I run again so fast at beginning of the race? Don’t know. All I know is that I had to pay for that stupid idea by feeling big, big, big pain. Really I had to look bad if Andrew offered to give me bottle of Lucozade when passing me by. On each of the 6 loops remaining after initial first 13 km I was just thinking about how slow I’m running and how easy would be to just walk away from that race. Haven’t done that. Maybe my head is stronger than I thought initially. On lap number 7 I even walked, was really exhausted. Seamus helped me with small Mars bar and Redbull. Sugar into blood. That did the trick but just for about 10 minutes. Anyways, have finished my jog in 3:47. Mentally struggled. So, just packed my assignment into car and drove back home.
Why it is going from bad to worst for me? Weight, heavy legs, no rest, head… These were my thoughts on the way back home. Couldn’t relax knowing that following weekend I was suppose to pace Galway Bay marathon. Will I last, will I keep my pace… steady pace? Questions, questions, questions. Just relax… That is what I need now. Read more

Die, die, die My Darling

Homemade food

‘Die, die, die my darling
Don’t utter a single word
Die, die, die my darling
Just shut your pretty eyes
I’ll be seeing you again
Yeah, I’ll be seeing you, in hell’

…and again Misfits/Metallica song, so adequate to situation which happened during the Szczecin marathon…
History in the making. First marathon in my home town, last large city in Poland without race of 26.2 miles, sorry 42.2 km. We are on the continent:) My first marathon in Poland. Strangely enough there was never occasion to run in any of the Polish marathons. Now, I know that will be back on the home soil again to run more races. Reasons later.
Friday was a very long day. Started at 2:30am and finished 11pm. During that time: flight to Szczecin, car collection, got to Szczecin (airport 60 km from city), visited expo, had lunch, back at expo for pacers meeting, meet with family. Oh jeez, busy. Anyway, I was happy to be a day before run in Szczecin. Bad form but that didn’t matter, I was in city where I was born and I was about to run first ever marathon here. Nice. Saturday 8:30am pacers supposed to pick up their balloons with times written on them. Would be ideal to just wake up after 7 (starting line is just 5 minutes drive from my Parents house) but not so easy. My Friends Michal (was pacing with me in Prague and again we were together in Szczecin) and his girlfriend Natalia arrived at 6 Am. It was nice to see them again. They arrived by train. Just after saying hallo we went to the car. On the way back I noticed one lad looking like a runner (still not sure why I thought so). I have asked him if he is here for the marathon. Answer was ‘yes’, so offered lift to starting line. He was quite surprised, same as Natalia and Michal. And I don’t know why… Later, when we were heading to my Parents house for breakfast they have explained that it’s not common to help strangers in Poland (still, unfortunately not much has changed since we left). You can say – cultural differences. Yes… So, breakfast. And then quickly to marathon headquarters to pick up our balloons. I have decided that it should be easy to spot as a pacer and went for very, very bright colour gear. Just for fun. Looking like a light bulb with two balloons strapped to my camera belt. Oh, yes. Forgot to mention, I was running with my TomTom bandit cam, won in their competition. Little bit heavy, ended up running with camera in my hand most of the time. Full gear on, looked little bit silly. But at least runners could easily spot me and that was the point. Although I was running in my home town I couldn’t recognise anyone. There was one friend from primary school, one from secondary school, boss from my very first place of work (photolaboratory when I was a student) the rest… unknown. At the starting line I have noticed my  uncle. Familiar face, family actually 😉 His son was running as well. Haven’t seen him during run. Atmosphere was buzzing, everyone excited. Runners couldn’t stand waiting and supporters wanted to see the race and scream their lungs out…
Start… Slow, trying to get into rhythm. Almost fell when checking pace on my watch and got my foot into small hole in the road (remember, same happened in Prague – caught the cone while checking my pace). Pacing is very dangerous. Found my rhythm. And both, me and Michal started to entertain our groupies. Looked like everyone was excited about the run but at the same time little bit concerned with drag hill on the 34th km. Hill, 2 km drag, which costs many ‘lifes’ during that race (including me, there for the first time I felt pinch in my hamstring followed by quad). But for now, we have started. Everyone happy, chatty. Talking about running experiences, asking quite a lot of questions. Discussing tactics and laughing. Nice bunch of people. At the beginning we were running on the longest street in Szczecin for some time and taking turn towards city hall buildings and Blonia Park. Passing by newest mall addition and heading for castle. Before castle turn, slightly downhill and on the right Cathedral. Left it behind as we were making our way over the bridge to right side of the Odra bank and towards, as we call that part of the city, ‘Right bank’. When we were running through city you could see supporters along the way. Not as many as I would expect but still some. Not to loud but noticeable. Couple of bands and DJs on the way. But that has unfortunately changed on the right side of Odra. Last big group of supporters was on the 8 km mark. Young kids from evangelical school were shouting encouraging ‘made up poems’ at us. But after that, long straight, no turns for next 10 km (until turning point) and no support besides some people waiting at the tram stop or some on the bridges over the road we were running. But most of them haven’t got the idea what we were doing. That was a shame. So, 10 km up, 10.5 back without almost any support (there was DJ on the half way mark, covering two sides of the road). That part of the route wasn’t very exciting. I know that some of the runners actually started to feel fatigue while running that stretch. No support, long boring straight and couple of ups and downs. Morale wasn’t high at this point and some started to remind themselves that we have still that killer of a hill in front of us. Wasn’t great but I think that everyone was back to normal as soon as we passed the bridge and got onto left bank. More support, louder, more was happening, more distractions which were taking your mind off the run in that high temperature. Ohhh, almost forgot. During marathon I would say that easily temperature was about 25 degrees Celsius and not one cloud in the sky (I think that was one of factors which killed me). Left bank. More people, Bozena and Natalia cheering there, more interesting buildings,  more history. Passing by Wały Chrobrego, Odra’s boulevards and heading to famous Szczecin Shipyard. Famous from it’s role during Solidarnosc strikes back in 1980’s. Now, unfortunately not very tempting and interesting (especially for younger generation, but that’s just my opinion). Still huge piece of Szczecin history. Most of the run through shipyard there was no tarmac on the ground so runners had to watch out where to put their feet. Just before shipyard we run via water wall which cooled us down just for couple of minutes. After shipyard same again. This time it suppose to be help before hard incline starting just around the corner. Hill, and not even one. When you saw something which looked like a top of the hill you were so happy but when got there you realised that there is small bend, 50 meters flat and up, up and away again. I think there were three nasty surprises like that. And when you were on the top top of the hill you thought that there should be sharp downhill but nothing like that. Slightly down, not much. Where the hell is that downhill? Climbing for so long and getting that tiny way down. I think that most of the runners were thinking that we will get that downhill eventually but little they knew. As soon I we have passed hospital that was it, whole slide down. Little bit flat and again up. From hospital to finish was about 3 km. At this stage my quad was already acting up. I was trying to keep my composure but knew that if I will make it without walking it will exact 4 hours or just over. I have asked all runners who were still following to speed up little bit and try to get to Michal, who was about 150 meters in front of us. Told them that he will get them on time and there is risk that we won’t make it if they stick with me. Some of them were able to speed up but most were already so exhausted that they stuck with me and no words of encouragement could force them to run faster… And then it has happened 2 km before the finish with 11:30 minutes to 4 hours (actually was a good chance to be there in time) I had to start walking. Quad hurts quite a bit. Had to limp a little bit. Took down my balloons (no point of having these when you won’t make it). When started to walk funny thing had happened. I felt tired and quite hot. During whole run haven’t felt that. I think that body wasn’t actually taking that into account focusing on the run until I  started to walk. Tried to force other struggling runners to give it the final push to the finishing line while limping towards 4:05.
I was very disappointed with my run, with what has happened. Glad that is was over. Crap run but for the first time on the finishing line there was more people than usual cheering for me. My Wife, always there for me. She was already very concerned about me when she saw 4 hours on the clock but not me on the finishing line. My Sister, who was responsible for promotion and media contact for marathon, gave me huge hug right after I passed finishing line. Younger niece, surprised me with a hug and words of ‘I’m so proud of you Uncle’. And my Mum, confused about what just happened. Why I was angry with myself cause I have finished, right? There was as well Michal and Natalia asking if I’m ok.
What can I say? Disappointed with pacing, haven’t managed running in high temperature. Fourth week running hilly marathon is kind of killing me now. On the bright side. Marathon was organised quite good. It was the first attempt, never will be perfect. Nice race pack (value for money, but apparently it is norm in Poland), atmosphere great, little bit disappointed with police behaviour when maintaining the marathon route. Sometimes runners were actually running through the cars. One more strange thing – bikes. Supporting crew riding the whole time with runners and with water and Powerride supplies. Very disturbing for other runners and dangerous when traffic was passing us and somehow at this time bikes were outside running cones, directly on the street. Bright side again. Now all runners know that Szczecin Marathon is a tough one and nobody will just come here to tick the box . You need to have it in you to finish this one (there was quite a few DNF including elite runners – that says something). Will be back again defo and hope to bring more Friends from Ireland. Theresa you are in already, Michelle you have skipped this one (not sure if your excuse was enough but ok), Cezary counting on you… So, let’s meet in Szczecin next year, this time probably in June. Who’s with me??? Read more

Flat – ish

Eating late in the night

Hello newbie. How are you? We’re you fast on your first half? Enjoyed that? Do you think that you will last for rest of the race? What will be you pace little bit later?
Questions, questions… Most answers where, let’s call it, negative. Ver fast (for my standards) beginning of the race. Remembering route profile I was expecting longer drag from km 2.1 till 7.3. And that wasn’t as easy as that. There was plenty ups and downs, not just that one hill. Was checking all the time millage on my watch to see where that climb will be, but that was just before 7 km when proper uphill started. Wasn’t too bad. Of course pace went down but that was in plan. But there was no such a hard work on the beginning in the plan. Top of the hill and down hill. Expected longer run down but again down and up. Mostly down, but when I was picking up the pace another hill happen. And the whole way was like that. I know that I prefer steeper hills and good run down than constant ups and downs. My race in Tyrone was almost exactly same as Dingle week before. Fast, fast until I die. I know, not best. But funny enough I was able to repeat same crap performance twice in a row. That is something extraordinary. Not to be missed. Know that I’m in bad for and even worse shape but you should always find a funny side. Was missing that for a while. I should be more possitive. Know that my banner ‘Run Fatold, run’ is very adequate and I have missed with the Form by 2 months (too early) but it will end. I will bounce back and start to run faster.
Must say that marathon was organised quite well for such a small event. And according to organisers they had just 4 months to pull it off. If that’s true some of the bigger venues or ones which are there longer can learn a lot from them. Mary Anderson Foundation together with Rainbow Club were brilliant. For just 30 pounds we were getting race pack with shirt, bus drop to starting line, water stations every 4-5 km, professional photographer and medal at the end of the race. That is value for money even if marathon route is not for everyone. It is worth to try. And if you are not a marathon runner you can always try marathon relay. 4 runners running 42.2 km in total. I think there was no rules saying what distance needs to be covered by each runner. Only rule which heard (maybe was more) was that runner with bib starting with letter A needs to start race and one with bib starting with D needs to finish. Rest was up to the team and their tactic. Have noticed that when running in Northern Ireland there is plenty of runners which I don’t know. I’m assuming that location is not convenient for most of runners I know. I have noticed that as well in Achill and little bit in Dingle. But maybe these two are not as popular cause of the hills.
Forgot to mention that for the first time I have decided to drive same day as marathon run where journey took me more than 2 hours. Actually it was closer to 2.5 and it wasn’t the best expirience. Had to be in Carrickmore before 8 Am to pick up the racing pack and get the bus to starting line. As usual I wanted to have some spare time just in case. So, just in case was aiming to get there on 7:30. And to do that I had to wake up before 4 Am to be ready for departure at 5. That was last time I done something like that. 1.5 hour drive is tops what I can do without staying for a night before the race. I know that sometimes I will be somehow forced to do that but if not I will arrive day before. So, again it was a long, long day. Early morning, 2.5 hours drive, marathon run, 2.5 hours drive back. Was so wrecked that at 8 I was already in bed sleeping.
Tough? Yes. Would I run it again? Probably, just need to be prepare better.
Have found couple of pictures by CMCA IMAGES on Facebook so will put these here. Read more

Unpleasant reminder…

Food

Dingle Marathon was an unpleasant reminder of how far back I’m with my fitness. And as well as me not sticking to the plan. Not pushing to much on the first half and be comfortable on the second part of the run… And what I did? Run as hard as I could first 11 miles and paid for that later. Ok, but back to beginning… Read more

Three hills…

Medal

Start loop, conquer three hills, repeat… That in short is Achill marathon. In short but there is so much more to that run…

Achill Island itself is beautiful. That can’t be ruined even by Irish Summer (especially one we had this year). Of course with bad weather it is hard to enjoy views when you there but… you just enjoy being there… So, that what we did over that weekend. Weather wasn’t too bad. Kinda windy, little bit rainy (time to time) but that was expected. Running, walking, being amazed by views. This is Achill… But for all coming down there. Remember to have cash on you… Achill has just one ATM, which is located at the beginning of the island. Yep, that could be a small hiccup. Especially when you need to use cash to pay for B&B. But what will happen if only ATM is ‘OUT OF ORDER’? And that has happened that weekend. I you lucky and need just 100 euro or less you are going to garage. Trying to purchase products for 10 euro which will entitle you to cash back option up to 100 euro. But if you need more you will need to by for 10 euro amount couple of times… Kinda funny… but not when you need cash. Read more

Caught me by surprise

Leixlip medal

Friday early evening I got message from Mark Conlon asking me if I can give him a lift to marathon. My reply was that I’m not going to Donegal. He was probably surprised by my reply but texted back that he is going to Leixlip to run local marathon. I was planning to run that one but was convinced that it’s on next weekend. Confused? Yes, probably cause I have skipped couple of marathon weekends lately and this year that wasn’t a regular thing. Anyway, I wasn’t ready to run but on Saturday morning I have picked up Mark and couple of minutes later both of us were heading towards Leixlip. That was the first marathon of the two which were organised to support hospital. Read more

The Long Drive

Crew already happy

Some ideas straight from one of the member of my CREW – Norman Hunter.

‘These are just what I think was relevant to the event. Firstly I had my running gear under my jog pants and hooded, but knowing that you are an excellent solo runner I felt to run with you would have only caused you distraction and irritation. I did however spend a lot of my time focusing on your form to see if the head was dropping your gait getting sloppy. If these things had happened then yes I would have ran with you.They didn’t so you didn’t need my lumbering presence beside you. I won’t comment on your food or drinks, you know your body and what works for you we are all individual in that regard. The event itself was small and intimate which was in my view brilliant. I would have liked to see a sign at the turns in the early stages just to avoid confusion. I know we had maps but it still it would have been nice. You had a travelling aid station which could not be faulted in anyway. The weather I believe required at least an extra 10% effort on participants behalf. The final 3 loops of Clifden I know is now a tradition but one I feel that is unnecessary cruel ( something I mentioned to Ray) it would be better at the start, there is no need to further test people that have completed over 97 miles. Lastly in relation to the event I accept it was a small field but I there should have been a small token to distinguish 2 and 3 if only a mention on the presentation medal. On a personal note it was a pleasure to be a member of your crew and I enjoyed the company I shared that day. To your wife again offer my apologies for constantly forgetting the pronunciation of her name, even though I’m confident I can say it now. As a crew we had some laughs during the event which made it fun and enjoyable. If you decide to try and improve your time next year I’ll happily crew for you again if I’m around.’ Read more

The Long Run

With Ray and medal

Remember that evening back in early February when I was shown my plan for ultra runs for 2015. I wasn’t convinced back then that I will be able to accomplish all runs – 50K, 50 miles, 100K, 12 h and 100 miles. In February it looked like distant future. Now, after the last of the runs that day when I saw ‘The PLAN’ almost fades away in my memory. Each longer race was preparing me for the Connemara 100 – Crown Jewel (at least for me and at least for now). I could say that my only preparation for that race was to make sure that I will have proper amount of miles in my legs. Second thing – make sure that I will have reliable crew. Mileage was down to me and it was going quite well. Crew was sorted out as well. So, everything was going according to the plan. Days and weeks were passing by. I was clocking miles, going into longer runs, running plenty marathons. Everything looked promising until event was moved forward by a week. Instead of 13th of August now it suppose to take place on the 8th. For me that one week wasn’t a big deal but some members of my crew had holiday plans for that time. I was already signed in and was missing full crew. Took me another couple of weeks to sort that out and at the end of the day I had three members of the crew: Bozena (my Wife) – knew me best and already was going through ultra experience with me as one man crew team, Norman Hunter – running buddy from MCI who I met last year in Ballina, where both of us were on the beginning of our marathon adventure and Lukasz Banasik – old friend from primary school who moved down here as well. So, between three of them there was ultra crewing experience, marathon and ultra running experience and huge enthusiasm. Explosive mixture which as it will prove during the race worked out really well. Mileage and crew was sorted out. Now I had to learn to listen to my body and control what I can eat and what shouldn’t I even try… Read more